Every October, for the last few years, I've felt like I've been cast adrift. While I still go through the motions of daily life, it's as if someone untied the rope and I am gradually floating away from the world and everything in it. I know it's because of the anniversary of my first pregnancy loss. The devasting day … Continue reading Embracing My Inner Hippie: How Nature Has Helped Me This Baby Loss Awareness Week.
I wrote this the week before Freya's third birthday but didn't post it. I held back partly because I didn't want to cast a shadow over her celebrations but mostly because I was worried it might seem like I didn't realise how lucky I was to give birth in a safe place to a healthy baby, which couldn't be … Continue reading Giving birth – was it the best experience I could have hoped for?
“Who is Oscar? Is that his house? Can I play with Oscar?” Usually when Freya asks a question I don’t have an answer to, which happens quite a lot these days, I turn to my good friend Google for help - all the while pretending I know, really, but it’s educational for her to help … Continue reading Pregnancy loss – how to explain it to a toddler?
Trigger warning: Pregnancy loss mentioned. Give my mum an old curtain, some ribbon and a sewing machine and she will knock out a tablecloth, a set of doll’s clothes and a pretty cushion cover - all in the space of about five minutes. My nan, who sadly died before I was born, was a tailoress and … Continue reading The story of a doll.